Lately I’ve been sitting with something heavy. Not panic. Not anxiety. Just a steady awareness that we are living with uncertainty in ways we have never experienced before. The other morning I was on the back porch, mug in hand, watching the day come alive. Birds loud. Air cool. That quiet space where your mind starts wandering before the world gets noisy.
And I kept thinking about artificial intelligence. Not the fun parts. Not the trends or the filters and avatars. The real parts.
Who control it. Who benefits from it. And ultimately, who gets harmed first.
Because history has already shown us how that usually works.

My Fear About AI Isn’t Science Fiction
When people talk about AI, it often sounds futuristic and exciting. But my fear isn’t necessarily about robots taking over. It’s about power moving faster than accountability.
Artificial intelligence is being built by companies whose primary responsibility is profit. And historically, profit has rarely aligned with protecting vulnerable communities.
We are already seeing how technology shapes:
- Hiring
- Healthcare
- Policing
- Education
- Public opinion
And now, it can also shape reality itself.
We are entering a time where it may become harder to tell what is true, what is manipulated, and what is strategically designed to influence us. That alone is enough to make anyone pause.
Growing up, movies like The Terminator used to terrify me. I had a real fear of robots rising up. And if I’m honest, a part of me still does. But as I’ve grown, I’ve realized that fear was never really about machines. It was about power.
As a Black woman, my life has required me to learn how to navigate difference, diversity, and complexity. I don’t usually fear what I don’t understand. I ask questions. Observe. Learn. That has been necessary for survival.
But technology has always been one area that never fully captured my interest. My brain just doesn’t naturally live there. And that is exactly why this moment feels unsettling to me.
Because the fear is not the technology itself. It is the historical pattern of powerful systems being used to control, exclude, and oppress — and now those same patterns being paired with tools that move faster, think faster, and reach further than anything before.
What feels most real to me isn’t science fiction. It’s the idea that we are already living in Minority Report times — systems predicting behavior, shaping outcomes, and concentrating power in ways most of us do not fully understand or control.
And that reality feels far less like fantasy and far more like something unfolding in real time.
The Part That Disturbs Me Most
One of the things that unsettles me the most is something I am not sure if enough people are talking about: the environmental cost.
Artificial intelligence requires massive data centers. These systems use enormous amounts of water and energy to function. Cooling these systems alone can impact local water supplies.
And if history has taught us anything, it is this:
The communities most affected by environmental harm are rarely the ones benefiting from the technology. We have seen it with pollution, waste, industrial zoning, and infrastructure. So it is not unreasonable to ask who will be affected first this time.
That question does not come from fear. It comes from pattern recognition.

Living With Awareness Without Losing Yourself
This is where the tension lives for me. Because I am not interested in living afraid. But I also refuse to be naive.
There are people and systems working every day to shape outcomes in ways that serve power and money. That has always been true. Technology just makes it faster.
So the question becomes:
How do we live with uncertainty without letting fear control our decisions?
How do we use tools available to us without unknowingly working against our own interest?
I don’t have perfect answers. Some days I feel balanced. Some days I don’t. There are some days I log off and protect y peace. Other days I read more, learn more, and try to understand the systems shaping the world my children will inherit.
I am learning that discernment is not a destination. It is a daily practice.
Faith, Foundation, and Staying Alert
For me, the grounding has been simple but not easy.
Prayer
Nature.
Yoga and breath.
Boundaries around what I consume.
Conversations that build rather than divide.
I stay informed, but I don’t marinate in fear.
Because fear is one of the easiest ways to control people. And division is one of the easiest ways to weaken communities.
So I stay alert. I stay curios. And I try not to let the noise steal my joy, my softness, or my ability to love deeply.

The Truth I Am Holding Right Now
Living with uncertainty is not new. What feels new is the speed and scale of change.
Some days I worry about what the future will look like. About they systems my children will have to navigate. About the decisions we are making today without fully understanding the consequences.
But I also remind myself that every generation has faced unknowns. We are not powerless. We are not alone. And awareness is not the same fear.
So for now, I am choosing to stay informed, stay grounded, stay prayerful, and keep asking questions. Because silence has never protected us. And fear has never freed us.
BTW: “When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.” — African proverb
How are you balancing awareness and peace in today’s world?
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